Sometimes i miss home.

Last night was...Saturday?

Yes.

I got home from work and plopped down on my bed. So tired. Aimee was in Langley so the house was silent. All of a sudden out of nowhere I found myself in the weirdest mood ever!

It resulted in dwelling on some of last years events followed by a few light tears. All I could think about was my grandma fournier who passed away now 6 months ago, how i missed her and how i used to be married. 2 major things that occured in one year. It's a lot.

I then had a bath and stared at my arm for awhile. I love my new tattoo, though it's not quite finished yet. It's so beautiful. The detail and the layout. All that. Chad Woodley is a master.

Lauren had purchased me a ticket to go to this insane dj show down on main called, LA Riots. After my bath i was not prepared to take part in this, however, i dragged myself to the closet and put some clothes on myself. i messaged her letting her know that i would be her butchy lesbian partner that night because i looked like i could swing that way. i had on all black. black pants. black hoody. black touque. black shoes and socks even. there was a green coat, but that was a necessary tool in keeping warm.

i drove to jj. waited for her to call. drank an americano. waited for her to call. stared at the pages of a georgia straight. she called. i drove to fraser and 30th to go pick her up and decided on the way that there was no point in me attempting to make this night happen. we had a little heart to heart in daphnis for a good half hour and i left by myself. i drove and drove and drove. i wanted to be in abbotsford in that moment because i have all my back road routes and spots i will take myself to in times of inner torment or need. the treck i normally take myself on out here is not as theraputic but it does the trick. i drove to UBC. along 12th that turns to 10th that goes to the part where you have to go left or right. then down by the water where you can see the whole city and the giant port boats and the water is so still you don't think it's real. i suppose abbotsford doesn't have that part.

i woke up this morning feeling better. i get to see travis and drink home made ceasars, go shopping on commercial and see jeremy and sheree.

ho. hum.

my arm is itchy.